to me art is a way of living
I’m a very tactile person. Most of my work has a unique texture, and when paintings are exhibited, the viewer may touch them. The integration of another channel of perception allows viewers to better connect with me and my work.
here’s my collection of paintings available for sale. I understand that the vagina print might be too extreme for some people, and some might not fully grasp its significance, but to me, it’s a very emotional piece. Each painting with the print has its own unique meaning.
the rest of the paintings, let’s say, are more usual. However, all of them are filled with emotions. Each one means the whole world to me. They were all a part of me at some point. I’ve been asked to sell them many times, but couldn’t let go. Now, it’s time, and I hope you enjoy them as much as I do.
portal
acrylic, paper, wooden canvas
450 USD
This is the fruit of my subconscious. For several days in a row, I saw this image in my mind. The painting is called "portal", but originally in Russian it is called "window" because it was inspired by my living room and the huge window in it.
Sitting on the couch in the summer, I pondered life and existence many times, looking out the huge window.
The man in the painting looks into the distance, to the right side, which symbolizes the future. The left side, representing the past, is slightly larger than the right. The past is our emotional baggage of memories, knowledge, and emotions. The past has made us who we are now. The future is unknown and changeable. His eye is distorted and looks straight ahead. He is in the moment here and now, recalling the past and contemplating the future.
Many people in our world live in the past, many are fixated on the future, and few live life in the moment. That's why the painting is called "Window." Like a window, we look into the past or the future, but at the same time, we remain in the moment, observing.
50×60cm
Sitting on the couch in the summer, I pondered life and existence many times, looking out the huge window.
The man in the painting looks into the distance, to the right side, which symbolizes the future. The left side, representing the past, is slightly larger than the right. The past is our emotional baggage of memories, knowledge, and emotions. The past has made us who we are now. The future is unknown and changeable. His eye is distorted and looks straight ahead. He is in the moment here and now, recalling the past and contemplating the future.
Many people in our world live in the past, many are fixated on the future, and few live life in the moment. That's why the painting is called "Window." Like a window, we look into the past or the future, but at the same time, we remain in the moment, observing.
50×60cm
2022
all simple?
acrylic, cement, wooden canvas
550 USD
This painting tells a whole story
In March, I decided to leave my job and enter the freelance world. In June, I returned to Russia after traveling through Asia for six months. Upon my return, I faced some financial difficulties, which greatly affected my emotional state. I didn't know what to do or where to go next. Life seemed very complicated.
I realized I needed help, and I met with a transpersonal psychologist. Our first session began with the statement "life is complicated." During the session, she asked me, "Look at your life, and how easily you got everything you wanted." That's when I realized that I was making everything complicated for myself, and in reality, everything is much simpler.
At that moment, I had an exhibition in a couple of days for which I was finishing a painting called "Portal." But after our session, I was so charged with this energy of simplicity and ease that I needed to pour out my emotions onto the canvas. I immediately went to it, and this painting was born, in a burst of creative passion. I finished it just a couple of hours before the start of the exhibition.
It reflects my process of transformation from difficulty to simplicity. Against a very voluminous, massive texture background, which symbolizes the complexity and roughness of life. At the same time, the pink background smoothes out the heaviness and emphasizes the beauty of life.
The girl without a face seems comfortable in the space, yet not entirely so. This is because this painting is about the transition from complexity to simplicity, capturing the process of transformation from old to new. That's explains the meaning "all simple?" with a question mark, as the painting itself captures the process and not the final result. This realization is only the beginning, as you have to act on it and finish the transition.
Don't forget your realizations and don't be afraid to act on them. After having my realization, I acted on it, and in the passion of the moment, this painting was born. It holds strong emotions within.
55x75cm
In March, I decided to leave my job and enter the freelance world. In June, I returned to Russia after traveling through Asia for six months. Upon my return, I faced some financial difficulties, which greatly affected my emotional state. I didn't know what to do or where to go next. Life seemed very complicated.
I realized I needed help, and I met with a transpersonal psychologist. Our first session began with the statement "life is complicated." During the session, she asked me, "Look at your life, and how easily you got everything you wanted." That's when I realized that I was making everything complicated for myself, and in reality, everything is much simpler.
At that moment, I had an exhibition in a couple of days for which I was finishing a painting called "Portal." But after our session, I was so charged with this energy of simplicity and ease that I needed to pour out my emotions onto the canvas. I immediately went to it, and this painting was born, in a burst of creative passion. I finished it just a couple of hours before the start of the exhibition.
It reflects my process of transformation from difficulty to simplicity. Against a very voluminous, massive texture background, which symbolizes the complexity and roughness of life. At the same time, the pink background smoothes out the heaviness and emphasizes the beauty of life.
The girl without a face seems comfortable in the space, yet not entirely so. This is because this painting is about the transition from complexity to simplicity, capturing the process of transformation from old to new. That's explains the meaning "all simple?" with a question mark, as the painting itself captures the process and not the final result. This realization is only the beginning, as you have to act on it and finish the transition.
Don't forget your realizations and don't be afraid to act on them. After having my realization, I acted on it, and in the passion of the moment, this painting was born. It holds strong emotions within.
55x75cm
2022
parallel me
acrylic on canvas
217 USD
She came to me in a dream, appearing out of a colorful portal. It was all swirling and splitting colors like a prism, shining like a rainbow. She was entirely purple and said to me, "Come with me, I'll show you a different world."
I was shy but followed. I saw a magical world, all in shades of purple. When I asked her why everything was purple, she looked at me kindly and said my mind is too small to comprehend the complexity of color and reality in that world. But she said she could show me a glimpse of it.
She touched me, and I felt something I had never experienced before. I felt like I entered another reality just for a moment, feeling all the complexity and magic of that world and how incredibly colorful it was. It had way more than just three dimensions, and I felt like our eyes and brains were not meant to exist in that reality because they are too small and undeveloped compared to theirs.
Now that time has passed, I think it was me, but in another world, in some other world, and she wanted to open up my mind.
50x60cm
I was shy but followed. I saw a magical world, all in shades of purple. When I asked her why everything was purple, she looked at me kindly and said my mind is too small to comprehend the complexity of color and reality in that world. But she said she could show me a glimpse of it.
She touched me, and I felt something I had never experienced before. I felt like I entered another reality just for a moment, feeling all the complexity and magic of that world and how incredibly colorful it was. It had way more than just three dimensions, and I felt like our eyes and brains were not meant to exist in that reality because they are too small and undeveloped compared to theirs.
Now that time has passed, I think it was me, but in another world, in some other world, and she wanted to open up my mind.
50x60cm
2023
the ecstasy of living
acrylic, cement, wooden canvas
300 USD
The process of transformation lasts throughout life, and a part of mine is captured in this painting.
Here, the final transformation is represented, but beneath this painting, there are five more.
The final transformation
It all began in early October. It was painful and scary. I started pouring out emotions onto the canvas. At that time, I didn’t understand my emotions myself; they often changed, and ultimately, I was angry. Angry at everything and at myself, unknowingly. I was angry and suffering, but why?
I made up something to myself and dwelled in it.
To stop dwelling, I poured out emotions onto the canvas. They changed, I changed.
This process was like therapy; I dug and discovered myself. The paintings changed one after another. I painted without a plan, without thinking. And I was angry at myself for it. Angry at myself for who I was. Realizing it now seems surreal.
As a mantra, I repeat to myself: I’m awesome, I’m great.
She may not appeal to everyone, and that’s okay, but I adore her, and that’s what matters. In principle, you can’t please everyone. There will always be people with low vibrations who won’t understand, and that’s okay too. They’re just not my people.
I love to paint naked women. With each woman I paint, I learn more and more about myself and my femininity.
Creativity is very intimate for me. It’s the doors to my subconscious. I expose myself and bring out all my hidden feelings.
60×80cm
Here, the final transformation is represented, but beneath this painting, there are five more.
The final transformation
It all began in early October. It was painful and scary. I started pouring out emotions onto the canvas. At that time, I didn’t understand my emotions myself; they often changed, and ultimately, I was angry. Angry at everything and at myself, unknowingly. I was angry and suffering, but why?
I made up something to myself and dwelled in it.
To stop dwelling, I poured out emotions onto the canvas. They changed, I changed.
This process was like therapy; I dug and discovered myself. The paintings changed one after another. I painted without a plan, without thinking. And I was angry at myself for it. Angry at myself for who I was. Realizing it now seems surreal.
As a mantra, I repeat to myself: I’m awesome, I’m great.
She may not appeal to everyone, and that’s okay, but I adore her, and that’s what matters. In principle, you can’t please everyone. There will always be people with low vibrations who won’t understand, and that’s okay too. They’re just not my people.
I love to paint naked women. With each woman I paint, I learn more and more about myself and my femininity.
Creativity is very intimate for me. It’s the doors to my subconscious. I expose myself and bring out all my hidden feelings.
60×80cm
2023
evil passion
acrylic, cement, wooden canvas
119 USD
Oh, I was angry. Oh, I was furious. And it was all because of love.
I was kind of in the middle of an argument. It wasn't that bad, just a mild, kind of argument, but oh, it got me emotional. Whenever I feel, oh, I feel a lot.
We kept sending each other emotionally infused texts, and instead of releasing all my angry emotions on my loved one, I tried to have a more or less decent conversation with them.
So I picked up a canvas, cut out a hole there, and started stitching. I was stitching and stitching, releasing all the emotions inside of me. Then I got some oil paints and started smudging them with my fingers.
This painting is infused with the strongest emotion there is: love. And there's a thin line between love and anger.
I was kind of in the middle of an argument. It wasn't that bad, just a mild, kind of argument, but oh, it got me emotional. Whenever I feel, oh, I feel a lot.
We kept sending each other emotionally infused texts, and instead of releasing all my angry emotions on my loved one, I tried to have a more or less decent conversation with them.
So I picked up a canvas, cut out a hole there, and started stitching. I was stitching and stitching, releasing all the emotions inside of me. Then I got some oil paints and started smudging them with my fingers.
This painting is infused with the strongest emotion there is: love. And there's a thin line between love and anger.
disbalanced
acrylic, cement, wooden canvas
150 USD
It all started with a sketch back in 2020. I had just gotten stuck in Russia during COVID-19 and gained 10 kilograms.
For a time, I stopped photographing myself naked, although I have loved doing so since my teenage years, considering the human body a work of art, and I am my own main muse.
I decided to reclaim the self that I had forgotten, so I photographed myself and drew a sketch from it. Next to the drawing, I wrote the phrase "got a little crippled trying to fit into society."
It was very difficult for me to adapt to life in Russia as a Russian girl. I was used to speaking English and being in the company of open-minded foreign people.
In Russia, I wasn't understood; people just didn't get my weirdness because most of the people here are stuck up and cold. A couple of years later, the impulse arose to transfer the sketch onto canvas. Because only now do I feel that I have almost returned to my old natural self.
This painting is about the forgotten old that has turned into something new. It's about how, despite life's circumstances, our destiny is in our hands. We either allow the world to take control of us and turn us into unknown beings, or we take everything into our own hands and create our own destiny.
40x60cm
For a time, I stopped photographing myself naked, although I have loved doing so since my teenage years, considering the human body a work of art, and I am my own main muse.
I decided to reclaim the self that I had forgotten, so I photographed myself and drew a sketch from it. Next to the drawing, I wrote the phrase "got a little crippled trying to fit into society."
It was very difficult for me to adapt to life in Russia as a Russian girl. I was used to speaking English and being in the company of open-minded foreign people.
In Russia, I wasn't understood; people just didn't get my weirdness because most of the people here are stuck up and cold. A couple of years later, the impulse arose to transfer the sketch onto canvas. Because only now do I feel that I have almost returned to my old natural self.
This painting is about the forgotten old that has turned into something new. It's about how, despite life's circumstances, our destiny is in our hands. We either allow the world to take control of us and turn us into unknown beings, or we take everything into our own hands and create our own destiny.
40x60cm
2023
sip and drift
acrylic, cement, wooden canvas
180 USD
This painting was created in the autumn. At that time, I experienced a minor depression after the government announced mobilization, and once again, despair overwhelmed me. I wanted to live and have fun, but I had no strength at all. I drank a lot of sparkling wine and stayed at home...
Specially for this painting I wrote a short poem. Originally it is in Russian
"Она любила выпить
Особенно игристое
Пила его медленно
Плывя духовно и физически
Она пыталась жить
Толком не зная как
Ей хотелось многого
Но не зная чего именно"
English translation
"She loved to drink
Especially sparkling wine
She drank it slowly
Drifting spiritually and physically
She tried to live
Not really knowing how
She wanted a lot
But not knowing exactly what"
50x60cm
Specially for this painting I wrote a short poem. Originally it is in Russian
"Она любила выпить
Особенно игристое
Пила его медленно
Плывя духовно и физически
Она пыталась жить
Толком не зная как
Ей хотелось многого
Но не зная чего именно"
English translation
"She loved to drink
Especially sparkling wine
She drank it slowly
Drifting spiritually and physically
She tried to live
Not really knowing how
She wanted a lot
But not knowing exactly what"
50x60cm
2022
shame
acrylic, cement, wooden canvas
159 USD
This painting is dedicated to menstruation and the feeling of shame that many girls experience towards their bodies.
Half of the population of this planet bleeds every month, yet menstruation is still considered a taboo topic in society.
I can't speak for everyone, so I'll share my personal experiences. I started menstruating at the age of 11, and I was incredibly unhappy with my body. I didn't understand why this burden was placed on me and why it was happening to me.
I remember when it first started at night. i was woke in bloody sheets realising i have stained them. I was ashamed of myself and diddnt know what to do. I rushed to wash them, not yet knowing that cold water should be used. The stain didn't come out, and I needed adult help.
I was so ashamed that I wanted to disappear. The feeling of shame overwhelmed my small body, as if I had really done something wrong, when it was just blood, naturally discharged.
I was incredibly ashamed of my own body and its biological processes.
There are many more stories about menstruation and experiencing a sense of shame, but isn't that abnormal? Menstruation is something entirely natural and innate.
There should be no shame in your body.
The print is made with my vagina using acrylic paint
30x40cm
Half of the population of this planet bleeds every month, yet menstruation is still considered a taboo topic in society.
I can't speak for everyone, so I'll share my personal experiences. I started menstruating at the age of 11, and I was incredibly unhappy with my body. I didn't understand why this burden was placed on me and why it was happening to me.
I remember when it first started at night. i was woke in bloody sheets realising i have stained them. I was ashamed of myself and diddnt know what to do. I rushed to wash them, not yet knowing that cold water should be used. The stain didn't come out, and I needed adult help.
I was so ashamed that I wanted to disappear. The feeling of shame overwhelmed my small body, as if I had really done something wrong, when it was just blood, naturally discharged.
I was incredibly ashamed of my own body and its biological processes.
There are many more stories about menstruation and experiencing a sense of shame, but isn't that abnormal? Menstruation is something entirely natural and innate.
There should be no shame in your body.
The print is made with my vagina using acrylic paint
30x40cm
2023
cry of the soul
acrylic, cement, wooden canvas
87 USD
Over the past couple of years, my plans have constantly been shattered by what's happening in the world.
I've stopped understanding what's going on at all, what to do, and how to be.
This painting is my inner state. A state of despair, incomprehension, and total chaos. My inner world is just shocked by what's happening right now, quietly screaming inside me.
It's a reflection of my soul and the heavy emotional state over the past couple of years, especially the recent couple years. I remember sitting, thinking, and not wanting to accept or believe what was happening, both back in March 2020 or in February 2024.
I've stopped understanding what's going on at all, what to do, and how to be.
This painting is my inner state. A state of despair, incomprehension, and total chaos. My inner world is just shocked by what's happening right now, quietly screaming inside me.
It's a reflection of my soul and the heavy emotional state over the past couple of years, especially the recent couple years. I remember sitting, thinking, and not wanting to accept or believe what was happening, both back in March 2020 or in February 2024.
40х60cm
2022
